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  • Mood: Unhappy
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I don't expect-- nor do I intend on boring any of you --since I'm really just bawling my feelings, but--

I've been upset with myself lately. Partly self-disappointment, and the other half is just...well, a friend of mine, who's never really treated me like a friend before. I never wanted to experience feelings of jealousy, but I can't really control it. Everyone admires her significantly, regardless of how they treat her. And I just hate myself for it. I know people can change, I know that--but I never really found the confidence to express that to her. Why? Because she's two-faced--I know what she's said behind my back before, and I never made it evident on my face of how exactly that affected me.

Last year, in a class, there was a project involving groups. She literally urged me out of our group since we had a little over the limit, claiming that I was "needed more by the others". The following week, a friend of mine secretly told me how she never intended on joining my group in the first place--she wanted to be alone with the other two so they could do the best and gain that bonus mark. Really? For a friggin' number? /:

She and I still work in group projects, but she always takes the role of writing the written, thinking parts--and aha, it is in no way beneficial on my part. I remember writing a goo paragraph in English once, and I sent it to her to check it out. She changed it all, and after it got marked, there were quite a few mistakes. In that "nice" facade she put on, she practically told me how it was my "error", OH BUT IT'S TOTALLY OKAY. Pft. Yeah right. /:

I've randomly broken down a couple of times this week, but I never really wanted to tell anyone. They had more important things to do.

I'm just frustrated. Upset. It just isn't describable.

Thanks for reading all the way through if you've reached this point.

I'm sorry I had to rant--I've just lost my patience after holding back for two years.

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Artist | Student | Varied
A bubbly teen who has a strong passion for anime and anything art related. Has been obsessed with old favorites like Megaman and Yu-Gi-Oh and still keeps it alive to this day (and beyond of course~). Likes cheesecake, milk tea, Devil May Cry, Kingdom Hearts-- and many other things besides food of course. :3 I believe in honesty and passion when it comes to life. If there's something my heart craves, I'll set out to satisfy it!

Raised around Yu-Gi-Oh! and other classics, I've been inspired to pursue a career and inspire others with creativity just like other artists have done to myself. Making people smile will be my best paycheck! <3

I've vowed to follow my dreams, no matter how crazy they are. I'm going to reach all of them.

Is there a dream you won't give up on?

Favourite genre of music: Rock, Pop, and Techno~
Favourite style of art: A large variety
Skin of choice: All. No racism.
Favourite cartoon character: COURAGE THE COWARDLY DOG

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SayaKou-Hassuru May 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEAR! :DDDD *Spreading the love to here as well* You'll get your gifts on Monday, kay? Kay. owo
neon-kitsune-kiki Mar 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
you just got tagged:[link]
SayaKou-Hassuru Nov 15, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey! Facebook's being weird (This is why I prefer dA) so I was wondering...
Have you started on your stars? I have, but I was only able to fit in nine on one page. Do you think that's enough? Also, do you have a wonky template? Like, the star isn't equal at all! ;w;
Blueberry996 Nov 16, 2012  Student General Artist
Hahaha, it is getting weird, isn't it? x3
Yes I have~! And I manage to fit about eight or nine per page, so you're good~! My template star isn't too great, but it's satisfactory. Dontchu worry about it~!
SayaKou-Hassuru Nov 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Even on the HetaOni FB Page. It won't show on the page, but it shows in people's news feeds...Weird. >>;
Anyways, yay! :'D Do you have your family helping you? I ask my sister, but she's like, "No!" x'3 I only have ten stars cut out though, and that includes the template. I'm thinking about drawing on all the stars and then cutting them all out, rather than doing it page by page. =/
Blueberry996 Nov 16, 2012  Student General Artist
It's all laggy for me, too! >< At least there's dA. c:
Nah, I'm working on it all alone. I've got 4 pages done already, so...meep. xD And yeah~! It's easier drawing all the stars first. I actually do it two a time, 'cause I thought I'd split the work, but I want to get it over with. They're pretty stars though; I actually wanna keep them. ;u;
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SayaKou-Hassuru Oct 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
The rules said to post it on your profile page, so I'm just following the rules even though you should've read it on FB. x'D
Blueberry996 Nov 11, 2012  Student General Artist
Oh crap--I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT THIS BEA-CHAN. I'll get to it right now~! Bahaha, your questions are so hard though-- ;A;
SayaKou-Hassuru Nov 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh hey, I actually forgot about that too...XD;
They're not that hard...:P
Thank you very much for the fav! #muchlove :heart:
I see that u like Near very much... He is mine!!!! LOL... I think that I can share...
thnx for the watch~!
Blueberry996 Aug 21, 2012  Student General Artist
You're welcome~! ^^
Thank you for adding my picture to your favorites! ^^
Blueberry996 Aug 18, 2012  Student General Artist
You're welcome; thank you for putting together such a wonderful cosplay outfit. ^^
Thank you very much ^/^
Thanks for the faaaave :O
Blueberry996 Aug 16, 2012  Student General Artist
You're welcome~
Thanks for the faves on mine~
EscapeMyFates Jul 31, 2012  Professional Filmographer
Blueberry996 Aug 1, 2012  Student General Artist
Oh, I unno~ Just some random girl, y'knoooooooow. ;D
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